Revenge After Divorce Novel by Black Rose

NICK

As if I wasn’t hurting enough, Olivia went and kicked me in the gut. I felt the air in my lungs left me and I was left gasping for air and struggling to breathe. My chest not only tightened but the pain in it made me feel like my world was spinning. Just how much did Olivia hate me?

The ground beneath me felt like it was shifting, and I felt myself falling. “Nick! Are you alright?” I could hear Olivia’s voice, but I was hearing it from far. I didn’t know what was happening, all I knew was that my chest hurt. The pain was so intense that it blinded me, making me weak and unable to focus on anything else.

Five years I have lost with my son because of what I did. The more I thought of that the more intense the pain became. I don’t know what happened next but when I woke up, I was in a ward on a hospital bed. The events of earlier came back and my chest tightened with tension gathering all over.

I did say that Samuel was my son, but Ethan convinced me that he wasn’t. The doctors I trusted, everyone made a fool of me. Was I that bad of a person that everyone would hide my own son from me. that they would think he was better off without me? Dear Lord, I pray for a chance to make things right, and I pray for redemption.

“Nick, you are awake.” Mother, I wondered who called her. What happened?” I didn’t feel like talking I was beyond sad. I wanted to blame Olivia for everything but what right did I have to blame her? I took so much from her and the five years she took from my son were nothing compared to what I took from her.

“Nick, are you in pain, do you want me to call the doctor, is it your heart?” mother fired one question after another. I didn’t feel like talking. My heart was breaking as sat there. Why did I even believe that he was not mine when he looked so much like me?

Why was I so stupid to be fooled like that? all the women in my life have fooled me. mother, about her family. Sandra about everything else and now Olivia about my own blood. “Nick Jones!” I slowly turned to look at my mother. “Talk to me, you are worrying me.” I felt her pain, at least she got to be with me until I grew up.

I missed a lot of things with my son. “Samuel is my son.” She said nothing but looked at me as If I suddenly grew horns. “Nick, you will have another child, all you have to do is meet someone, get married and have children. You don’t have to bother Olivia and her son. It’s enough now my son.”

1 chuckled. Even my own mother thought I was a nuisance. Way to go Nick. “No, mother, I mean Samuel really is my son. Olivia told me not so long ago. I guess the news shocked me so much that I passed out. But am fine now.” my mother looked at me for a while without saying anything noveldrama

She sat on the visitor chair and just kept looking at me. I didn’t have time to entertain her, I had my own issues to deal with. My son was busy calling other men father while he didn’t even know what I was. To him, I was a stranger who meant nothing. That alone killed me..

“I now get what people mean when they say we reap what we sow. Olivia hiding your son from you is the result of everything you did to her. I am hurt that I didn’t get to know my grandson because of that and everything I did to his mother as well. We are not good people my son. Maybe at some point we were but we lost sight of what was right and went astray. This is the price we pay for that.”

Mother’s words hurt me, I didn’t know if it was because she has no faith in me or that she didn’t believe I was a good person anymore. How would Olivia and my son see me in a different light then if my own mother saw me as a bad person.

“I get it mom, I am a bad person that my son is growing up calling strangers father, while I his father he sees as the stranger. It is all my fault I know that you don’t have to call me a bad person. Lalready know that I am but hearing you say those words pains me.”

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A lone tear escaped my mother’s eyes rolling down her cheek until it dropped on her chest. “I never said you were a bad person, Nick. But we did do bad things to Olivia at some point. That doesn’t make us good people son. We have to first admit our mistakes and change then we can call ourselves good people. I understand why Olivia hid him from you.

She was not helping at all. I didn’t even know why she came. Well, if she didn’t then who would have been sitting on my bedside when I woke up? Olivia was never going to do that. “I am giving up on Olivia, I am going to let her live her life in peace. I know I said that before, but it was before I knew the extent of her pain and what she was willing to do to get me far away from her and out of her life”

Mother wiped her tears. “She was your great love, I know, and you will never find one like her again. But letting her go is the best thing you can do so. For her, she deserves to heal from the wounds of the past. You being around her all the time and claiming to want her back is not helping. She is no longer yours to claim or to keep anymore. Try to forget her my son and heal as well.”